I get asked a lot, "Why are you always so positive? How do you do it?"

"How did you come to be the way you are?"

My answer is "THROUGH SELF DESTRUCTION!"

I was in a very dark place.

A deep hole, I felt like, I couldn't get out of it.

To be honest, 'Self Discovery' isn't this comfortable and a miraculous thing.

It can get ugly and confusing.

It's difficult to confront yourself sometimes.

But, the pressure, I put on me, was the greatest gift I ever gave myself.

It pushed me towards figuring out what my own personal version of happyness looked like, through so much discomfort.

I grew on my own terms, my own speed.

I figured out what actually matters to me.

And as I carved my own path, I began living on my own terms, for others.

I stopped being angry and resentful.

I stopped killing myself over things, I couldn't control.

I started being gentle with Myself.

INNER PEACE was my new goal.

I had to let all the resentment go.

I stopped being UNHAPPY over trivial things.

And.

An Amazing thing happened, when I got honest with myself and started doing what I loved.

This Made me HAPPY! My life started to slow down.

I began to live each and every moment as it was my last and felt like a Human being.

I began to ride the wave that is life,

with this feeling of JOY and CONTENTMENT.

I started moving fluidly, steadily, calmly and gracefully.

I felt confident with every step I took in who I was; flaws and all.

A veil was lifted and a whole new perspective was born.

I shed the old me.

looking back,

I don't recognize myself anymore.

That version of me is foreign

Having a positive mindset prevents me from going back.

I REFUSE TO GO BACK.

EVER.!

Nothing or nobody will have the power to ruin what I have created for myself.

I am at peace with where I have been,

with what I went through,

and at last, where I'm headed.

THIS IS MY DESTINY…